About selfishness and thesis work
Aug. 9th, 2008 07:10 pm![[personal profile]](http://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
phantomasAmazingly, I have realized something (yes, it is that rare an occurence, s nothush from the back!)
The biggest obstacle to my finishing this thesis work is the need for a certain amount of selfishness that simply goes against my habit&instinct. I need to concentrate on this more than on anything else. I need to postpone my checking the f-list and replying to emails/comments after I've done my bit of work, not before. I need to stop worrying about my mum (she fell and broke her wrist, two days ago, btw, she's got a cast from wrist to shoulder) and about my brother, who's left behind to deal with it all.
I need to put myself and this task I put myself to first.
I'm not used to it, I find it very difficult and I don't feel right trying to nurture it. Part of it is just environment, the setting in which I grew up, the way it's shaped me (last of four, everyone going through their thing before me and so on and so forth), part is character (I'm social, I like keeping up with people!I care about you lot, and all the others who are not on LJ needing other means of tracking)...and yes, I know that the whole 'new guy' thing is taking a big chunk of my attention...
But I want to do this. I apologize for the constant whine/focus on it and the (temporary) lack of fandom squee.
Any tips on how to learn to be more selfish welcome!!!
The biggest obstacle to my finishing this thesis work is the need for a certain amount of selfishness that simply goes against my habit&instinct. I need to concentrate on this more than on anything else. I need to postpone my checking the f-list and replying to emails/comments after I've done my bit of work, not before. I need to stop worrying about my mum (she fell and broke her wrist, two days ago, btw, she's got a cast from wrist to shoulder) and about my brother, who's left behind to deal with it all.
I need to put myself and this task I put myself to first.
I'm not used to it, I find it very difficult and I don't feel right trying to nurture it. Part of it is just environment, the setting in which I grew up, the way it's shaped me (last of four, everyone going through their thing before me and so on and so forth), part is character (I'm social, I like keeping up with people!I care about you lot, and all the others who are not on LJ needing other means of tracking)...and yes, I know that the whole 'new guy' thing is taking a big chunk of my attention...
But I want to do this. I apologize for the constant whine/focus on it and the (temporary) lack of fandom squee.
Any tips on how to learn to be more selfish welcome!!!
