Meme and Stuff

[phantomas]

Meme from alixtii
. ..FOUR Winchester brothers? That could be interesting *g*

On the twelfth day of Christmas, phantomas sent to me...

Twelve deanjournals drumming

Eleven icekestrels piping

Ten urban legends a-leaping

Nine movies editing

Eight westerns a-vidding

Seven animals a-writing

Six songvids a-painting

Five je-e-e-ensen ackles

Four winchester boys

Three thomas hobbes

Two vampire diaries

...and a slash in a laramie.

Get your own Twelve Days:

In other News, I am right now seriously considering giving up on my PhD. I just...Life has moved one and I want different things now, and it all just feels like a huge chainball at my ankle...I'm looking to calm down right now (some paperwork went wrong/was too late, which is why this entry, but the mood and thoughts have been here for a while), and will consider all possibilities. I'd like to accomplish this, it is within my abilities, but it requires a degree of concentration and dedication that...I have not been able to give it. Hence, it turns stressful and becomes a duty instead of a chosen achievement. Mum's cancer and my own MS don't help, no, and I am not - contrary to my own beliefs - Superwoman and can't just take it all in my stride. Silly me, I want a home and be healthy and possibly a baby, right now. Thesis just comes after. Life is too damn short and I have wasted some of it.

I really don't know.

Comments

[icekestrel.livejournal.com]

Oooh, I'm piping am I? Piping hot, I hope;-)

With regards to the thesis, maybe you've changed and have got what you needed from it already? You're right, life is short and very precious. You must go for what you think would give you the most in the long run.

If you ever need anything, even if it's just a willing shoulder, give me a yell.

[nonniemous.livejournal.com]

I could deal with four Winchester Brothers. Two of Each? Yeah.

I so hear you on the PhD, and I'm not even done with my bachelor's until this coming June. I came back to school later in life, though, and at 45, while I'm definitely doing the MA, I'm so not sure about the PhD. It's a huge amount of time and effort and yeah, it's a wonderful achievement. But there are other things in life.

As I was dithering about just how far I want to take this schooling, a friend told me, "Just go until you're done. And you, my friend, are not done yet." But you just might be done, when you stop and look at it.

[lorelei633.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

It's a big decision. I know your head and your heart will tell you the right thing to do. Sometimes it's not a good idea to make a big decision when you're under a lot of stress, so if you can delay making the final choice, do so. The most important thing is to take good care of you first and foremost, then work on the rest.

Hang in there, sweetie. I'm sending you lots of love and strength.

[byslantedlight.livejournal.com]

Oh, I so know what you mean about the PhD thingie... I have no idea where mine's going at the moment. I'd love to be able to work on it in alot of ways, but only if I'm paid to do it, because not having any kind of life as a result of doing it is just stupid, I've decided... Life is more important... That said, if it's at all possible to manage both, since you've come so far with it... can you delay deciding about it for a while? Shall we have a mutual whinge and waaaah sesh on Saturday?! *g*

[jebbypal.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You know how much I loathed grad school and wish I'd done other things. So I totally understand...On the other hand, I don't know what your career goals are and how a ma vs a phd (assuming the european version gives you the masters default) would affect those.

However, real life is defintely better than any piece of paper. *hugs*

[krazykipper.livejournal.com]

*squishes*

You can always go back to the PhD later if you change your mind right? But if your hearts not in it, then there's no point right now.

[mcicioni.livejournal.com]

Love "the slash in a laramie", wish you'd share a little of it with me. (hey, big westerner, share a little Laramie with me)

Re. the PhD. Good wishes whatever you decide to do with it, especially since health (yours and your mother's) is a real issue. If you do drop it, you may need to find ways to fight feelings of guilt and failure. If you stick with it, you may need to fight boredom, frustration, little time, little sleep, and for at least 3 or 4 months you may need to make the thesis your #1 priority (YES, before John Winchester). But oh, the joy of submitting it, the thrill of reading the examiners' reports, and the delight of Becoming a Respectable Academic even though you Speak with an Accent and Are a feminist and a Fan.